Motivation

I'm finding it hard to get going this morning. Maybe it's because it's cold outside and I don't really want to move. More likely, I feel a bit bored. I spent all day yesterday doing coursework, trying to make an impossible project fit into a minuscule word limit. It doesn't do much for the motivation, I can tell you. In addition, I feel like I'm going for some sort of world record in email checking. I know I won't get an answer from any of my PhD places for at least a few weeks, but what if they email me? It is ridiculous, but I've never been much good at waiting, and this has such a large impact on my future (in my view anyway), that the waiting is even more agonising.

Today, I'm faced with the same again. More email checking, more writing. All I really want to do at the moment is go on holiday somewhere. Do something new. Anything. I'm not fussy. Still, in a couple of weeks I've booked to go and see an opera in town. I know, it probably doesn't sound interesting to anyone other than me, but hey, I like it and it's something to do!

Other than writing coursework and checking emails, I really haven't done anything else. This is the downside of being a student: if you're not into the partying madness that goes on, you're pretty much stuck slaving over books. It gets pretty boring after a while, and I would love nothing more than a change.

Still, I can console myself with the fact that next week I am halfway through my first term. So, I'll have a Christmas break, another term, the Easter revision period (let's face it, it isn't a break at all), four exams and I'll finally be done with my degree. It is a hell of a lot easier to break the year down like this - it seems somehow less of a stretch to the finish this way. I know, it's still a long time, but I try not to think about that too much. Once I'm done with my exams, I intend to enjoy myself over the summer. I don't want to get any work placements, I just want to make some time to do what I enjoy, and to kill off the boredom. Quite what this involves, I'm not sure. Mostly, it will depend on who is around and who wants to do stuff, and of course whether I have any money left by then. Hopefully, if I get my PhD place, I'll have to spend at least some of my summer finding a new place to live - I can't really think about this until I know where I'm going though. Which means checking my email. Here we go again...